i have loved the things food makes possible for me for awhile, but i've been afraid to love food solely for its deliciousness.
but i've stopped worrying about what good-tasting food will do to me. i've stopped being afraid of good food. i've stopped being afraid of myself. i've stopped being afraid of myself having a relationship with good food.
i love macaroni and cheese and granola and toasted ravioli and fish tacos and chips with salsa and deep, dark chocolate and egg sandwiches with cheese on sourdough bread and best of all, frozen custard. i love it all most when it's made with its most real self, not fat or sugar free .
i've been living this way for a month...
...and my clothes all fit the same. my clothes all fit the same.
yes, the same.
i am not a self-indulgent person, i am not an overeater, i am not overweight.
i am a woman who loves to be fully alive and loves to experience life's fullness on a daily basis through the taste of beautiful, flavorful, God-given foods.
i am a woman who is conscious of her health and as a result, believes in utter moderation (which is a whole post in itself).
i am a woman who feels more beautiful than ever when she quits worrying and just eats really good things til she's satisfied.
i am a woman who finally trusts her body.